It just got REAL!

Until now, my issues have been just a side show to my regular life. I go to the doctor every few months and stew about what could be wrong with me…but it has been a private stewing. Well, today I made the very difficult decision that I should go the director path (instead of partner) at work. I have good reasons for this…but none that I can really share. Many people will question my decision (including my wife!), and all I can say is that…in my heart it feels like the right decision long term. If I knew what was going on than the decision would be different, but I don’t! So, this is the first time this shit has really impacted my life. I hope it is the last, but at this point I have accepted that something is wrong and I just have to put it in others hands to figure out what.