Am I Crazy???

Does a crazy person know that they are crazy? I think Crazy is more of an objective measurement, so I think it is pretty hard to tell. Don’t get me wrong, I know I am not ‘eat paint chips and throw my own feces’ crazy…I think those people can tell by the strait jackets! When I got fat, there was a measurement that told me I was fat. Many people may argue with the BMI, but it does give us all a measuring stick with which to rate ourselves. Once I was well above the appropriate BMI I could not deny I was fat even when my wife would (lie, and) tell me that I am fine. There is no such measurement for crazy. In fact, history has shown that it is not that hard to ‘hide your crazy’. Here is what I know:

1.      I have symptoms that the doctor can’t find

      2.      I woke up from a dream and KNEW that I had MS, even though I had no idea at the time   what MS was
      3.      As a result of the dream, I self-diagnosed MS
      4.      Any time a new ‘symptom’ comes up I immediately jump to the internet and begin doing my doctors work
      5.      My doctor believes that the next step is the psychologist

When you add all of this up, it is hard NOT to determine that there is at least a hint of looney tunes going on inside my head. Maybe, just maybe, the first step to recovery from crazy is just like alcoholism…you have to admit you have a problem. So, I guess I will admit I am a little crazy. Now I have to find out if whatever is causing the numbness is making me crazy, or if the crazy is making me numb! Let’s go with #1 for now, and we will re-assess every year or so!