I'm BAAAAACK!

It has been a while. Things have been going good…The kids are growing fast, work is going great, all in all things are pretty good which is why I have not written anything in a while. The last time I went to the Neurologist he did not seem concerned. In fact, he said the next step was most likely the psychologist because it was likely stress related, or in my head. I know the mind is a powerful tool…but I also know that this shit is real. However, since it does not impact my motor skills, he said there was no reason to worry and to come back if things got much worse. Over a couple month period I felt the numbness slowly move from my foot all the way up to my knee. It had been about 9 months since my neurologist called me crazy, so I figured I would give it one more shot and if he still thought I was crazy than I would get another opinion. I also found some information on-line on Gluten intolerance, and some symptoms that sounded very similar to mine.

So, I scheduled a visit to the Neurologist and gave up Gluten. I was pretty gung ho on the Gluten thing…I finally found symptoms that related to mine, which means I could have found the source, and if the source is Gluten…well that would be Awesome to know! A trip to the local sprouts health food market and I was all set.

Then, at the Neurologist he decided to re-run some tests. The tests showed nerve deterioration, and from that point on the dr’s tone got a little more serious. At some point I realized that up until the point that the tests showed issues, he had no reason to believe that anything I described to him was true. By nature I am a sceptic of others, so I understand his point of view, but I never once thought that he did not believe me about the numbness until that point. I brought up to him the Gluten free angle, and he was fairly certain that it would have no impact, but it would not have a negative impact and placebo's have been effective for some things in life, so he said go ahead. He ordered a spinal tap ASAP…which is a critical step in diagnosing diseases like MS. There is an 80%-90% chance that, if I have MS it will show up on the tests. That also means that a negative test does not mean I am in the clear, but it will give me some peace of mind.

I am not sure whether to be happy or sad or scared. I could be two weeks from knowing what is going on, which would be a good think, except that it would mean that something serious is wrong with me. It has forced me to face the issue head on, and I am scared shitless. I have barely slept in the last week, and my mind is constantly racing at 100 miles a minute. All I can do is count the ticks on the clock until it is time to get my tests and get the results…Tick Tock Tick Tock…